Cosmics is closing. And I can't explain how upset I am.
I did something I knew I probably shouldn't, because I really wanted to. And because I did it for that reason, of course it didn't work out.
This guy I was interested in, had a great time with, had a lot of laughs with, decided we should just be friends. And because I am like a full stick of butter on half a piece of toast when it comes to liking someone. I become over excited, and perhaps clingy (when that is the last thing I would want to do). Not that I loved this guy after knowing him a week [make that mistake once, you won't make it again]. But it sucks when you are interested in someone, see it even potentially going somewhere, then without good reason it stops dead in it's tracks.
I am just waiting for the third thing to come along; you know, the rule of three. First Cosmics, then the boy, and now what? Call it negative thinking, or a self-fulfilling prophecy, either way I will let you all know what it is as soon as it happens.
I need to open my mind and be more receptive to my higher power's will and way for me. Every time I take the reigns in any way shape or form, I end up hurt or someone else around me does. It is selfish.
I need a meeting.
